This time I will put your name, Bernie.

Sorry your nice little gesture seem like it was not even worthy of a reply. It did not make me happy. Not even a teeny bit. It was out of the blue, and ironic. A surprise, but not something I had hoped for. It just made me feel a little indifferent because if you are even thinking of salvaging something of worth to you( I don't even know that, maybe you were just trying to be nice because you are just so nice to everyone), it would have happened long ago, and it would have required much more effort. But somehow everything we had has made a 360 degree change in a matter of months and it almost seems impossibly irreversible. There are times I miss you, and Im sorry I did not even bother trying. You might think the same and feel that you do not matter because we don't seem to want you around anyway. Or that it does not change anything because of the fact that we are having fun without you. Yes, but someone, one person, has stayed throughout and did not succeed. And once it is futile, its human nature to just give up and leave it be you know? I was angry at one point, yet I probably saw it coming because you've done that way too many times, and we are just a phase to you, just like your other previous group of friends and you move on. That's what you do - you move on all the time from phases of friends to phases of friends and that's probably the one huge reason why I do not bother to want you or need you around.

And sometimes life is a matter of choice and change, if losing us is necessary for you to gain a sort of happiness that suffice your needs, that let's all pretend to be happy for you from afar, shall we?